I have been such a slug today. I slept well last night. I got up about 6:30 and didn't much. Then I went back to bed and tried to sleep some more but didn't. I then got up, turned on the TV, turned on the computer, and wasted time all day. I did eat some breakfast, take a shower and dressed but I didn't go anywhere or do anything. I've sat on the couch and watched TV all day. I just flipped around the channels all day. On Thursday I upgraded to digital cable in my den and bedroom so I have tons of channels to surf. And I surfed them all day. I also didn't talk to anyone today. I didn't get any phone calls and I didn't make any phone calls. Kind of a boring day. I guess sometimes you need days like that. I only have one day left on spring break so I guess I'll have to do all the things I've put of tomorrow. I'll get them all done. I always do. I'll get up early and get them all done with time left to relax and be a slug again.
Author: Paul
Men
You might remember from previous posts that I had a boyfriend in 2003 that I was really in love with and wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Well, in early November 2003, he decided we shouldn't be together anymore because of the distance between us. He moved to Oklahoma to take a job. He wasn't happy with his job at the time and didn't feel like he fit in on the east coast so he accepted the job and in September moved. I was crushed of course. In those earlier posts I wrote about missing him, etc. The last time I spoke to him was in November. I told him then I didn't think I could talk to him for awhile. I'd have to get over him before we could be friends. Even though I didn't keep up with Shawn, he kept up with me. He continued to read my web page. And then when I started the blog in November, he was able to keep up with me even more. I had no idea what was going on in his life but he knew what was going on in mine. I was unaware of this until I switched to my own domain name and could see, through the statistics, what IP addresses were checking out my pages. I noticed two addresses from Oklahoma. I figured it had to be him because I didn't know anyone else who lived there currently. I wrote about this in an earlier. Then two weeks ago I got an e-mail from him. He said he was embarrassed that he was checking out my page but wanted to let me know he was. I wrote back and said it was good to hear from him and that he could check out the blog anytime he wanted to. We e-mailed back and forth and then started talking on the phone. The first phone call was an hour and a half long. Luckily we both have Sprint so the call didn't cost us a thing. Since then we've talked a few times on the phone and exchanged e-mails. He knows that I still love him and probably will the rest of my life. I know that we can't be together because of the distance. We are going to be great friends and stay in touch often. Shawn was much more then your average boyfriend. He actually touched me. I felt that I could have spent the rest of my life with him. It was very hard getting over that feeling and who knows if I am over it or not. All I know is that I'm very glad we are friends and we will stay in touch with each other. I've hesitated writing about this because of the recent changes in my relationship with Brad. I thought he might think I took the changes well because of Shawn re-entering my life. I don't know if he'll feel that way or not. In any case, welcome back, Shawn.
Yesterday I had lunch with Brad. I picked him up at his office and we went to a little greek place in Alexandria. I can't think of the name of it. Surprisingly they had calzones, which is an italian thing I think. I had a cheese calzone. It was very good but too much cheese for one sitting. I enjoyed it though. Anyway, Brad and I had some nice conversation. I mentioned to him that I noticed he hadn't been reading my blog lately. He said he didn't want to read the bad things I might have written about him since he changed the status of our relationship. I assured him that I had not written anything bad about him. I told him I only wrote one post about the changes in our relationship and that was all. I'm fine with the changes that have taken place. I realize he's extremely busy and stressed with his job. I understand that he doesn't have the time to put into developing a relationship. I think he knows I'm okay with it. I have all the time in the world for things to develop at a later time if they happen to go in that direction. Anyway, lunch was nice and it was good to see him. He was all dressed up in his suit and tie and looked really good. So after lunch I took him back to his office. I asked if he wanted to get together this weekend if he wasn't working and he said he would let me know. We might see a movie or something. We'll see.
I had another dream last night. Again, I have no idea what it means. I was at a camp site with many of the people i work with. One of our leaders was talking, telling the group what we were to do that day. He was giving assignments. I was just sitting there listening and chatting with my colleagues. Then I heard the leader say Brad. I can remember turning my head in the dream and seeing Brad sitting there reading one of the books he has written. He wasn't paying attention to what was going on. He just waved his hand as if to say he heard and kept on reading the book. Then I heard one of my colleagues (one I don't care for) shout a few things about Brad, about things Brad is known for doing (going to bed early, getting up early, etc.). The colleague was trying to make a joke or something. Everyone laughed but I didn't get it. Then there was a distraction to my left. We all turned just in time to see one of our colleagues falling out of a tree she had been climbing. Right after everyone asked if she was okay, the dream ended and I woke up. I don't know what all this means or why I'm having dreams that I'm remembering but I'm going to chalk it up to taking that Entex for my sinuses and leave it at that. I'm not going to take the Entex anymore in the evenings. I'll only take it in the mornings. I need to get a good nights sleep. I only slept 4 hours last night. But I did take a two hour nap this afternoon. I'm feeling pretty good.
Sex Dream
WARNING: This post contains sexual content and adult language!
As you might remember from yesterday, I'm taking Entex for my sinus infection and it causes insomnia. I took a nap yesterday afternoon for 2 hours. Then last night I tried to go to sleep but I couldn't. I got up and played on the computer awhile and then went back to bed. I slept very lightly. Sometime during the night I had a wild sex dream. I woke up almost instantly and remembered the dream pretty clearly. Usually I don't remember my dreams that well. As usual, the dreams never really end they just stop with no ending. The dream went like this. I was in a hotel room, fully dressed and watching the news on TV. The bed was situated so that it looks right into the bathroom and into the shower. While watching TV the room door opens and in walks Timm Brantt (spelled incorrectly on purpose so it's not picked up on Goggle). For those of you not in my local area, Timm Brantt is a local sports caster. He's probably in his early 50's. Not a bad looking guy. Not really my type though. Older then I care for. Anyway, he walks in, obviously from his nightly news cast. He's dressed in a suit. He starts talking to me like I know him and like he's supposed to be there. He says, “I'm back.” I don't say anything. I just look at him. Then he says he's going to take a shower. He strips right there in front of me and goes in the bathroom. He starts the shower and gets in. The shower has one of those clear curtains so you can pretty much see what the person is doing. So he's taking a shower and I'm watching the TV. I look into the shower and I see him leaning against the wall with his cock in his hand. I can tell that he's strokin it. The next thing I hear is his voice saying, “Wanna give me a hand with this?” He's not my type but in this dream he's got a great tanned body and a HUGE cock, I mean HUGE! So I get up, go into the bathroom, and slide the curtain back. He steps forward to the edge of the tub. I get on my knees and he slides his cock right into my mouth. It was huge but it went in so easily. His cock is so huge that I have my mouth full and he still has his hand wrapped around most of it. So I'm sucking on his cock and he's moaning and kind of like fucking my face. I wasn't naked or hard or anything. I was just servicing him. He was loving it. Then. . .the dream stopped. Right there with his cock in my mouth. It just stopped. No cum shot, nothing. I woke up at this point…without a hardon I must add. I got up, peed, and went back to sleep. That was it. I have no clue why I would have a dream like that. Yes, I've been horny lately. Yes, I'm in a dry spell sexually, but Timm Brantt? Why would he be in the dream? That was the weird part. I also don't understand the hotel part. The sex part I can completely understand. If anyone has any insight as to the setting and the person involved, feel free to share.
Observations and Being Sick
Have you ever checked out the Style section (print) of the Washington Post? Every Wednesday they list all the wedding announcements. Every week as I go past that part and get to the television part I browse the wedding announcements just to see what's there and if there is anyone I know. I have been noticing lately that almost all of the people who have photos with their wedding announcement are white. I think that's interesting. Where are all the ethnicities? Don't they want their photos in the post? I have also noticed that in the obituary section most of the notices that have photos are african americans. There are hardly any whites and I can't say I've ever seen another ethnicity. I wonder why this is. I haven't been able to figure it out. I'm sure it has to do with culture but I don't know what. Just something I observed. Check it out sometime and see if I'm on the right track with this.
This morning when I woke up my head was pounding. My nose was all clogged up. I knew I either had a sinus infection or the pollen count was up. It's a beautiful day today so that would explain the pollen count. I was already going to the doctor this morning for a follow up visit for the wart on my lip so I thought I'd have him check me out for a sinus infection. I get there, he checks the wart, does some more freezing, and gives me a referral to a dermatologist in case the wart comes back. Then I tell him of my symptoms and he looks in my ears, feels my throat, listens to my heart, etc. He says I have all the symptoms of a sinus infection but that he won't be giving me any antibiotics. He goes into this lengthy explanation telling me that doctors are trying to prescribe less antibiotics so that humans can build up resistance to these common infections. He said that doctors are having to give stronger and stronger antibiotics for simple infections and the old ones aren't working. I have heard this before and understand the concept but what about ME, right now? He gave me a prescription for Entex and it would take care of the congestion and I could take ibuprofen for the pain. He said I would have to let it run it's course, that research has shown the most humans get over these things between 3 to 33 days. 33 days! I can't feel like this that long. That's crazy. So I get my prescription and go home. When I get home I pop a pill and go back to bed. I couldn't sleep. I tossed and turned and couldn't go to sleep. I get up and watch TV. Then I read the side of my prescription. It says “May cause insomnia.” That sucks. I need sleep to get better but I can't sleep because the drugs won't let me. Damn. Oh well. It says I have to take the last one before 4:00 pm so that I'll be able to sleep at bedtime. We'll see about that. Anyway, this afternoon I did lay down and was able to sleep a few hours. I do feel better already too. My nose isn't congested and the headache has subsided. Maybe it'll just be one of the 3 day affairs. I hope so! I hate being on spring break and being sick. I'm never sick! I have plans to go to lunch with friends tomorrow and Friday. I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow. Of course the doctor said if I don't get better to call him again and he'll phone in a prescription for an antibiotic. I doubt I'll need that now. I already feel better. I'll sleep well tonight.
Right Wing Eye and Stuff
I was browsing blogs today and I ran across this link on DanBlog. He mentioned it was on another site. It is a very funny take off on the Queer Eye for the Straight Guy show on Bravo (which I happen to be watching as I type). It's on the site for The March For Women's Lives. I had heard about this march from a friend. (If YOU decide to come to DC to attend the march, you know you can stay with me.) Anyway, check out the funny cartoon and then think seriously about attending the march.
Even though it's spring break, I went to school to do some work. It's amazing how much work you can get done when no one is there and you don't have 25 kids biting at your ankles. I got there about 8:30 am and didn't leave until about 1:30 pm. I can't believe how much work I got done. I'm pretty set for the rest of the school year. There isn't any big projects that will need to be done between now and the end of the year.
When I got home for school I had a message from my mother. I called the voice mail and listened to the message. Turns out her bid for the condo she put in yesterday was accepted! She now has a place to live. In less then a week she has sold her house and bought a new place. She will leave closing with enough money to renovate the bathrooms and buy some furniture. She is very pleased and relieved. I am too! Now all we have to do is pack shit up and throw shit away. Shouldn't be a problem. I'm really good at both. We've got plenty of time so there's no hurry.
After talking to my mother on the phone, I went downstairs to the exercise room and did two miles on the treadmill and did the weights. I figured out on Sunday what weights I wanted to lift and how much weight to put on each exercise. The system we have in our exercise room is an old Universal System. I don't really care for it but it will work for me. It seemed like the weights were really heavy today for some reason. I used the same about of weight but damn, it was heavy! I was tired but pleased with myself for keeping this up for two days.
After the work out I was tired but I wanted to do some cleaning around my house. I started with my balcony door. It makes a terrible noise when it slides across the tracks. So I vacuumed it out really good and then got some soapy water and washed the tracks. It seems to be sliding better but I think this summer I'm going to have to call someone to fix it correctly. I think the rollers need to be replaced or something. After that I was feeling pretty good so I kept going. I preceded to vacuum and dust my whole house. I hate dusting but I did it anyway. So now my house is clean. I feel good. I'll be able to lay around and enjoy my spring break for the next few days. Yeah!