It’s been mentioned on several blogs lately. Homer wrote about it recently, Jimbo wrote about it today, Jake actually took action about it, and Bert mentioned it on a recent post. I think it’s the time of the year that makes not only gay men think about it but all people. January is the time of resolutions and most make some sort of resolution to get in shape or lose weight.

I, too, want to jump on the bandwagon and make a resolution to lose weight this year. But then again, I think this is a yearly resolution for me. Four years ago I weighed 228 pounds. Slowly over 3 years I lost 50 pounds and got down to 178 at one point. Since that low point I’ve gained about 11 pounds and today I hover around 190 pounds, give or take a few pounds depending on the day.

I want to be one of those thin gay men who attract other thin gay men. It’s very typical in the gay community that most in shape gay men are only interested in other in shape gay men. I know there are those who like the thick look or the bear look but for the most part, the thin get the thin, etc. The sad part is, I’m not attracted to the men who find me attractive. I’ve always been attracted to guys who are thinner and smaller than myself. I don’t mean the really lean guys. I just mean the average guys. A little belly doesn’t bother me at all. It’s so hard finding the ones who find my thicker build attractive.

Last night I took the “before” pictures. I stood nude in front of my camera and took several shots from all sides. In 2005 I would like to lose 15 pounds or at least get back to that 178. I looked pretty good then. I’ve already started to change my diet and walk more. Today I walked 6.05 miles. My pedometer and iPod Mini are really getting a workout. I’m sure I’ll hear from those who say I need to work out, build muscle, increase my cardio, blah, blah, blah. Yea, I know all that stuff but I’m going to do it the simple way. Eat less, move more. That’s really all there is to it. That’s what I plan to do. Then I’ll take the “after” photos and compare them. I don’t want to be a muscle boy. I just want to keep my same build but be lighter. That’s what I’ll be working on in 2005. It will be a slow process. I know that. It took me 3 years to lose 50 pounds so it may take me all year to lose 15 pounds. I’ll take my time.