The pea green numbers on the clock just blinked 7:23 PM. The digital cable is tuned to channel 31 and WGN out of Chicago is showing a rerun of Will & Grace. You remember seeing that episode years ago. The wind has picked up and you can hear the screen on the window rattle behind your head. The computer has two large windows open. One on gay.com and one on AOL. No one is chatting…with you. Flashbacks of your day, your past, your future rush through your mind. Cheney and Scalia. The book you keep meaning to finish. Brad not calling. Shawn calling. Your dermatology appointment next week. What you'll do with your time off this summer. You can't keep your mind on one topic. Your brain flits from one image to another. What time should you go to bed? Should you take your lunch tomorrow? Why hasn't Brad called you back? Should you take that guy up on his offer for coffee this weekend? Woody Harelson was awful on Will & Grace. The wind is supposed to calm by morning. Why can't your mind focus? Do you need to focus or can you just spend time thinking about a million things without care? You decide nothing needs to be done, accomplished tonight. Thinking, worrying, transient thoughts are fine for the time being. Or are they? Fickle.

It’s a nasty, rainy day.
We can’t go out and play.
I wish it’d go away.
That’s all I have to say.

Have you ever checked out the Style section (print) of the Washington Post? Every Wednesday they list all the wedding announcements. Every week as I go past that part and get to the television part I browse the wedding announcements just to see what's there and if there is anyone I know. I have been noticing lately that almost all of the people who have photos with their wedding announcement are white. I think that's interesting. Where are all the ethnicities? Don't they want their photos in the post? I have also noticed that in the obituary section most of the notices that have photos are african americans. There are hardly any whites and I can't say I've ever seen another ethnicity. I wonder why this is. I haven't been able to figure it out. I'm sure it has to do with culture but I don't know what. Just something I observed. Check it out sometime and see if I'm on the right track with this.

This morning when I woke up my head was pounding. My nose was all clogged up. I knew I either had a sinus infection or the pollen count was up. It's a beautiful day today so that would explain the pollen count. I was already going to the doctor this morning for a follow up visit for the wart on my lip so I thought I'd have him check me out for a sinus infection. I get there, he checks the wart, does some more freezing, and gives me a referral to a dermatologist in case the wart comes back. Then I tell him of my symptoms and he looks in my ears, feels my throat, listens to my heart, etc. He says I have all the symptoms of a sinus infection but that he won't be giving me any antibiotics. He goes into this lengthy explanation telling me that doctors are trying to prescribe less antibiotics so that humans can build up resistance to these common infections. He said that doctors are having to give stronger and stronger antibiotics for simple infections and the old ones aren't working. I have heard this before and understand the concept but what about ME, right now? He gave me a prescription for Entex and it would take care of the congestion and I could take ibuprofen for the pain. He said I would have to let it run it's course, that research has shown the most humans get over these things between 3 to 33 days. 33 days! I can't feel like this that long. That's crazy. So I get my prescription and go home. When I get home I pop a pill and go back to bed. I couldn't sleep. I tossed and turned and couldn't go to sleep. I get up and watch TV. Then I read the side of my prescription. It says “May cause insomnia.” That sucks. I need sleep to get better but I can't sleep because the drugs won't let me. Damn. Oh well. It says I have to take the last one before 4:00 pm so that I'll be able to sleep at bedtime. We'll see about that. Anyway, this afternoon I did lay down and was able to sleep a few hours. I do feel better already too. My nose isn't congested and the headache has subsided. Maybe it'll just be one of the 3 day affairs. I hope so! I hate being on spring break and being sick. I'm never sick! I have plans to go to lunch with friends tomorrow and Friday. I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow. Of course the doctor said if I don't get better to call him again and he'll phone in a prescription for an antibiotic. I doubt I'll need that now. I already feel better. I'll sleep well tonight.