Confusion

Today I went to The Museum of Contemporary Art in Georgetown in DC with my photographer friend, Bob to attend a Foto Models Guild meeting. It was an interesting meeting. There was a good mix of photographers and models. We discussed portfolios and other topics related to the unprofessional and more artistic side of photography and models. I learned a few things. Then there was a time for models to pose for photographers. There was only one guy who I really wanted to photograph and was able to get a few good shots of him. But the lighting was awful! And I didn’t take my tripod with me so many of my photos were slightly out of focus. No problem. I may work with him on my own and not in a group setting. I didn’t really like the group setting anyway because other photographers were telling him how to pose or move an arm or whatever and I couldn’t take my signature close ups. He and I exchanged cards and I told him I’d like to work with him sometime and that I’d e-mail him. And I will. You can see photos of him and the model I worked with this morning in my photos section.

While on a break from the shooting I went out into the courtyard to have a smoke. I was looking around and there was only one tree surrounded by 3 and 4 story buildings. I found it odd that this tree was by itself. Of course I had to take a photo. I call it “The Confusion Between Humans and Nature”. Click on the photo to see a larger version. Hopefully you can see the contrast between the size of the tree and the size of the buildings around the tree. I felt bad for the tree. It was dwarfed by the buildings it seemed.

The Phone

I did something today that I've been putting off for a long time. I re-programed the numbers in my phone.

At what point do you delete the old boyfriends' phone numbers from your phone? How much time do you let go by before you let those numbers go? I decided today that it was time to do just that. I've had Shawn's numbers programmed in my phone for a year and a half. I haven't spoken to him since late August and I have no plans to talk to him anytime soon. So after hesitating about 2 seconds I hit that delete key until the number had disappeared from the memory. I did the same with his cell phone number. That's it. He's out of the phone.

Was that enough? Did I stop there? No, I also deleted Brad's number. His number has been in there for almost a year. I haven't talked to him since March so it was time to get rid of his number too. That one wasn't as hard to delete as Shawn's was. I didn't even hesitate when I pressed that delete key 10 times. Done.

One more? Yes. It was time to bid farewell to B's number. It's only been a month but it's enough time to forget that number. With 10 more presses of the delete key, I was free of all the men who had been in my life the last two years. Well, the ones I'm not friends with that is.

So then I re-programed the numbers. I put the voice mail number in the number one spot, David in the number two and three spots, then Michael in the number 4 and 5 spots. Mom's on rocket dial so I didn't need to re-program her number. So that's done. I feel so much better.

Shortly after re-programing the phone I was starting to think I shouldn't have deleted Shawn's number but then my phone rang and it was Homer. My mood instantly changed. Homer must know just when to call. Plus, he tells me the most sordid details of his life…stories I don't dare repeat but glad he shares with me. Homer, you're a stud. Thanks for taking my mind away from deleting Shawn's number. I didn't re-think it after that call.

A Picture Is Worth

Back in July I submitted a photo and a short writing to a site that posts such submissions. I got an e-mail today that my submission had been selected for today’s post. I didn’t think I would actually ever see it on their site but there it is. If you get a minute, surf over to A Picture’s Worth and check it out. It’s only up today so don’t miss it.

Not Enough Time

I was at work this morning by 6:30….that's usual for me but staying until 6:00 pm is not. I didn't get home from work until 6:30. That is a long day. And when I got home I had two voice mail messages to return, 14 e-mails on my regular e-mail account and 23 on my yahoo account. I watched the news and then spent the next hour returning e-mails. I can't keep up!

See, I joined a group on Yahoo called Naked Male Modeling. I posted some of my photos there and have been overwhelmed with the comments and responses. It's almost too much to keep up with. I want to personally respond to every e-mail but I just don't have that kind of time. I hope no one takes offense to my not returning e-mail in a timely manner. Just know I'm trying to keep up and I'll get to them all in time.

It's almost my bedtime and I still have things to do! I need a 28 hour day just to get 7 hours of sleep and do all the things I need to do. Before I know it, it's back to work to start the whole routine again. It's funny because usually I have lots of time on my hands and I have time to read, or watch TV, or just veg. But lately it seems like every minute of my time is consumed with so many little things to do. I know it comes in waves and I'll return to a time where I have the time to get back to that book I'm reading. It just seems like the time gets away from me and I always have things to do. There just isn't enough time.

Moving On

This afternoon I read on Palochi's Blog about the decisions he's made to move on to other things on his blog. I've decided the same thing. I thank him for his inspiration.

In the last week I've written too much about the election and politics. And while there are still things I'm hearing each day about it and about the administration, I've decided I can't write about it anymore. So as of today I'm no longer writing about politics and the election. That's not to say I won't ever write about it again. It just means for the time being I'm not going to write about it.

There's one other thing I've decided to move on from. It's just been in the back of mind for a few weeks now, slowly creating questions in my mind. No longer. It's gone. It's about B. B is the guy who I went out with 3 times and got along with well. There were several weeks between each date and the phone calls were few and far between. He continued to express interest but obviously didn't have time to pursue it. The last call was 3 weeks ago. I called him back the next day and since then, I haven't heard from him. Obviously it wasn't going to go anywhere if he didn't have the time to return calls. It's really no big deal. I've been preoccupied with photo shoots and work. I haven't thought about it all that much. But this afternoon it just popped in my mind. I made the decision to move on. I'll continue to scroll through Match.com and the Yahoo personals and of course act like I'm chatting on gay.com. Say HI sometime!