My Mother Died

This is the last picture taken of my mother. My older sister took it of her this morning at the hospital. Mom had been in the hospital since last Friday for the same reasons she’s being going to the hospital…fluid retention, heart valve issues, etc. She was not getting better. My sister had a conversation with my mother and they decided to have mom go to my sister’s house instead of being in the hospital. I talked to my mom on Sunday and she spoke like I’d never speak to her again. She was right.

My older sister and I drove down to Knoxville early this morning. We didn’t get there in time to say our goodbyes. The ambulance was there delivering mom to my sisters house. They got her in the kitchen and she was talking and asking for a glass of water. My brother and another sister were talking with her. And then she just died. She was still on the stretcher when my older sister and I arrived. We barely got out of the car when my brother came running out saying she had passed. My sister was hysterical. I couldn’t believe it. We went inside and got to see her and say our goodbyes. They then took her back to the hospital.

I’ll be here a few days to help make arrangements.

Death

From the November 15th entry in the journal we kept for changes in my father’s health:

1:30 AM – I turned him on his back to help the bed sores. I counted his respirations. Only 13 per minute. His feet are still cold despite it being 75 degrees in the room.

2:20 AM – The night nurse came in to give him his Ativan. I asked for Morphine as well since his breathing is very rough. She agreed. I counted 16 respirations.

3:39 AM – The night nurse came in for a bed check. Dry. 17 respirations. Moving his mouth as he breaths. I haven’t seen him move his mouth for days. His feet are still cold.

4:40 AM – His breathing is very short. 13 respirations. Feet still cold.

5:00 AM – The night nurse came in for a bed check. Changed his diaper and moved him. I used the sponge on a stick to wet his lips and the inside of his mouth. Only 9 respirations.

5:18 AM – Breathing is very short. I tried counting his respirations but only got to 6 and then he stopped breathing. He is dead.

I walked a total of 3.79 miles today.

So Sad

The lead singer of The Cranberries, Dolores O’Riordan, died today. Cause of death was unknown. I’m sure we’ll heard more about that in the days to come. I loved The Cranberries. Those 80s and 90s songs bring back memories. I loved this song: